Onto a temporary winner. It's called "normal".
Seven days ago I was dancing traditional Greek dance in a kitchen on the island Kythnos. This have become a mystery to me since coming back to London, attempting to get back to normal living again. 'Normal' is the word suitable for today. From being clueless, thinking I would move to Berlin or Bristol and adventure, to suddenly having a job (which I do enjoy) and a house in London again. No more cruising around, sleeping on sofas. No danger as far I can see. No nothingness. So maybe I will just enjoy this "normality" for a while. I feel quite happy about it. For now. .. and if adventure is calling, I will find it!